Today I felt empowered. At peace. Ready to move forward.
I'm not really sure what came over me.
I think in a way I already knew this was coming but I was waiting for Clint to get on the same page with me. I didn't want to be the one to leave. I wanted this to be a decision we made together and yesterday that's what happened.
Now that we're here and I don't have to wonder anymore about which direction to go I feel this amazing weight lifted off of me.
I know this is right. I'm ready for this. It will be hard on a lot of levels but it's right. I'm ready to move forward at closing this chapter of my life and moving on to the next.
Surprisingly I'm not looking for anyone to come be with me. I don't even want it. I want to be alone. I want to enjoy the casualness and freedom of being unattached for awhile.
It will give me time to figure a lot of things out. To determine what I really want out of life. To heal emotionally and get to a better place with knowing who I am.
You were right you know? I am strong. I can do this. I've overcome so much... Not without slip up's every now and then for sure, but I'm doing it. I'm living the life I want because for once I'm making all the choices and it's based on what I want... Not anyone else!
Just wow... The smile on my face could not get any bigger right now.
This is my time. I will not be held back by anyone or anything. It's my time to shine and all the haters can just keep in hating... Cuz this is my life and it's time I started living it!
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